So far this week, I have asked you to do an act of kindness, set a goal towards having a growth mindset, and asked you to let go of negativity and embrace positivity. These are all things my household have been working on really hard for the last year or so. It has been good for us. We are still not always fluent in all the things we should be doing, but we are trying and getting better everyday. That is really all you can do, TRY. Over the last year or so of, trying, I have discovered I am extremely unhappy with the direction my life is going. I have a degree I do not use, and skills that do not equate a job that makes me happy.
I have been taking copywriting classes since December of 2022, and learning about affiliate links and passive income. When it comes down to it, I want to write. I love to read and write. That is what I want to do with my life. That and travel, and maybe not have to tell my kids so many times to get their laundry out of the dryer and put it away, or clean their bathroom so it does not always smell like pee. Even though I have seen them clean it, occasionally. Also, I would like to not have to remind them to take a bath, go to bed, and see them help clean up the kitchen without being asked, but I digress. That is topic for another post.
I have had the opportunity to go on my first trip out of the country, and start this new writing endeavor of mine. Financially, it is not the best idea I have had, at least not at the moment. Based on my research, if I excel on my new journey, the financials will not be an issue. That is always a relief to any momma's ears. Especially one who has a kid in high school band. Also, a topic for some other post. I am sure if you look through my website and corresponding social medias, you will see that I actually started, well attempted to start this approximately 3 years ago. I intended to have a blog, podcast, and use social media to help get traffic. I even have 2 Facebooks and Instagrams. One set for personal and one set for "business". You will also notice that I did not get very far with it. Kind of like how I have 10 different novels started, but nothing finished. That is another goal of mine.
All of this goes to say I have been struggling with life. My main goal in life is to be happy and I just am not. At one point, I was happy, and I fought tooth and nail to get there. I got lost somewhere along the way and haven't been able to find my way back. I am now focusing all my energy on making my goal become reality that lead me back to my happy. I have been told recently that now that I have turned 39, I am having a mid-life crisis, and I maybe. I don't know for sure, but if I am, I will figure it out just like I have done with every other obstacle that has gotten in my way.
At this point in my life, I thought I would have a mortgage payment instead of rent, car payments on vehicles for my 2 older kids, and be paying for my 18 year old to go to college. None of that is the case. In fact, I had to borrow money from my parents to put gas in my car, get groceries, and may small payments on my utilities so they do not get shut off. I have also reapplied for food stamps. Also something I thought I would not have to do at this point in my life, but it's fine.
So....here I am embarking on a new journey to happiness with anyone who decides to follow along in tow. I am asking and answering the hard questions, and putting in the work needed to succeed. Because at the end of the day, if you ask my tribe, It's fine. I am fine. Everything is fine. Say it enough and you start to believe it. So....for now play well with others, no running with scissors, make good choices, and have a great day! I love you.
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